Everyday I wake up in the morning I feel miserable by the thought of going to office..I use to tell myself " Why am I doing this. I don't like my job. I want to quit my job." But my responsibilities towards my family stopped me from doing this..I was scared..It was an unknown fear which was pushing me into depression.Negative thoughts surrounded my mind like a cloudy weather..I started feeling helpless and lonely.I started hating myself.
I arrive to work lifeless, zero enthusiasm and afraid to listen to my inner voice. I started cheating on myself by pretending to be the happiest person. I stand in-front of the mirror and dance on high beat music in full volume. I started wearing high definition make-up so as to cover up my dull face. But the make-up also didn't helped much to cover up my emotions.
I SECRETLY LONGED FOR FREEDOM..
Though my better-half was trying his best to support me and motivate me but that unknown fear was following me like a shadow..One day after returning from office I sat in one corner and started crying as if I haven't cried for years.
Suddenly, I heard a voice which said " Why are you doing this to you. It's your life. Because of some jerks you are underestimating yourself. You have a bright future but you are losing faith on yourself. How will your parents, your better-half feel if they see you in this condition.?? It's you who can change your destiny..You are a strong woman. See the positive side of yourself. It's not the end. Realise your capabilities, believe in yourself and go forward in life.."
IT WAS MY INNER VOICE..
I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and said to myself " Enough of this. Why should I let down my self-confidence for some jerks who doesn't value me and my work. I will live my life the way I want."
I decided to quit the job. I want to be who I am. I want to live my dreams.So what if people say " I am taking a wrong decision." Its my life. I am the owner of my own life. I started seeing the positive side of life and trying to find opportunities in every difficulties keeping aside all my fear. Fear has no place in my life anymore. I have also started focusing more on what I want than what I don't.
I have set some goals for myself and with the support of my parents and family I have set the path that leads to my goal. I chose to follow my heart and listen to my inner voice.
